Friday 29 May 2009

it.is.very.ordinary.thing.for.a.girl!!

assalamualaikum...

now, i'm sooo sad.

the story started when i asked my brother to answer sincerely if i'm getting bigger or not. so, the answer was.....

"haah,along dah gemuk. muka pon dah bulat, lengan pon dah besar"
(WHAT A SINCERE ANSWER!!)

that is soo frustrating...totally!!

actually, i also felt that my body is expanding. but, i didnt want to accept fact until someone admit it. so, now, i'm trying reduce the quantity of my food to lose a few weight. try to eat rice one time instead of three...

but, today, i just can't help myself. i ate a lof of things! i think i had 4 plate of rice in this whole day!! WOW!! plus, i became such a lazy person today. i'm not sweating at all..gosh! i'm very upset....;)

i guess i had to try to stop it from happen in the next days...frankly, this is not the first time.(haha)

fighting!!
;)

...still regretting...

Thursday 28 May 2009

omedeto.gozaimase!

assalamualaikum....

first of all, i like to congratulate Barcelona.

YATTA!!

they defeated man u with 2 goals...yeah!!;)

but,the saddest part was i didnt watch the game..(huhu)

so, the story was i stayed up until 2 am just to watch the game by watching ryusei no kizuna..
just like my friend,adibah said...that jseries is awesome!! then, at 2 am, my dad awake. both of us are waiting in front of the tv. the game didnt start yet. so,there was a talk before the game start. talked about what will the game like...bla..bla..bla.

after that, i opened my eyes. it's already 6 am.

BAKA!!

i knew the result from my dad. he told me this morning. but, it's okay. there must be highlight of the game, i think!?(huhu)

anyway, congrates barcelona..!!;)



....the pictures had nothing to do with the post. i show it because i think she is the most beautiful and cutest japan actress...hik3..



(credit to unleashthegeek)

Monday 25 May 2009

sadness.is.around.me.now.

assalamualaikum..

again..aku rindu kat member2 aku. makin lama makin ramai yang further study. waaarghh!! rindu gila kat korang, seriously!! malam tadi, aku mimpi pasal member2 aku (F508). ini bukannya malam pertama aku mimpi korang. actually, most of the night after i left smakl, i dreamt about you guys!! aku mengaku memang susah nak cari kawan2 yang best giler macam korang.

malam ni, bahang gila. tak tahu la kenapa. tapi, tetiba aku teringat kat smakl kalau bahang macam ni, selalunye waktu blackout. arghh!! tetiba teringat waktu blackout tahun lepas. waktu itu, kat dalam prep. aku dengan atiyah and dura kat meja prep tengah borak2. tapi, diorang dok tangkap2 gambar kat tengah2 prep itu. habis penuh prep dengan flash2 itu. memang aku tidak dapat lupa pasal korang. rindu sangat2.

tadi baru habis mesej and call mimie. lepas itu, borak ngan bilah pulak. haih...mana tak rindunye..;( kadang2 bila ada something happened mesti aku teringat kat member2 aku. aku rasa penyakit aku ni memang tak boleh diubati. lagi2, kalau aku pergi smakl tengok adik aku. mesti teringat kat korang punyelah.

sorylah..kalau korang muak baca blog aku ni yang asyik mengenang kisah lampau je. tapi, aku memang tak boleh ubah perasaan aku nih. maybe ade member2 aku yang dah happy kat matrix or kolej or U kat sana itu. tapi, aku kat rumah ni, still teringat kat korang. whatever it is, harap korang semua berjaya kat tempat korang belajar sekarang. and aku harap satu hari nanti kita boleh spend time, borak2 together.

hmm..itu je kot. sorrylah malam2 ni ter-emo lebih2. lagi2 tengah dengar lagu lee min ho yang slow ni..lagi lah bertambah emo aku dibuatnya. okay, dah2. itu je. sory again. dont forget me and i'll missing every single of my friends..;)

Saturday 23 May 2009

tension!!

assalamualaikum..

now, 12.21 pm.

aku memang tension dengan situasi sekarang ni. rasa macam nak hempuk je laptop ni..eh,tapi mana boleh, sayang2!! gila, aku bukan kaya pon. mana taknya, bila aku nak bukak blog member2 aku mesti "operation aborted". tension betollah!!! nape ah? aku sempat bukak blog mimie, nazurah, izni, hajar. ima ngan sab tak boleh bukak. even blog aku pon kadang2 tak boleh bukak. adoi!!! poning palo eden..;(

hmm..anyway, ramai member matrix balik minggu ni. bestnya!! tapi, aku tak boleh nak borak (online) ngan diorang. esok aku kena balik kampung..(huhu). tapi, kesian jugak kat nenek ngan atuk aku kat pahang itu. lama dah tak jumpa diorang. hmm...rindu la pulak.

move on..surat tawaran kolej mara itu dah dapat. masuk 23 jun. hmm..seriously, macam malas je nak isi borang2 itu. nak kena pikir nak beli barang apa...nanti nak kena packing pulak. haih,,malasnye.. (haha) tapi, nak buat macamana kena la belajar. nanti besar aku nak kerja apa pulak.

ha..dah la itu. merepek je aku malam2 buta ni..(haha)

everybody, good day!!

(btw, mie, bgtaw aku best tak FO itu? cute x dance top itu??(hehe)

Thursday 21 May 2009

continue.my.friend.topic.

assalamualaikum..

okay, as the title said, aku baru habis baca blog semua kawan2 aku. nazurah dengan jodoh, ima dengan pakaian, diba dengan singing dream dia, qila pulak dengan cinta islamiknya, tapi qila kenapa tak boleh bukak blog lagi satu?? invite la aku..huhu;(

move on..aku pon baca la blog aj a.k.a hajar. aj, aku promote ko nih..(hehe). aku memang setuju gila dengan apa yang dia kata. ada satu hari, tak silap 2,3 hari lepas. aku bosan then aku tekan remote astro cari apa benda best nak tengok kan..then tekan tv1, ada national geographic pasal senjata2 moden sekarang and in the future. macam best je, so, aku pon layanlah.

rancangan itu cakap la pasal US buat weapon canggih sekarang ini untuk menentang terrorist. hmm..macam biasalah, like what hajar said, mestilah terrorist itu refer kat orang islam kan..diorang tunjuklah gambar 911 itu..then gambar bombing subway kat london itu..next, gambar pemuda2 islam kat iraq palestin pegang senjata besar yang boleh tembak aeroplane kat udara..ala lupa la nama dia (hehe).

aku pun macam dah immune dengan media2 barat cakap pasal islam terrorist nih. sakit hati itu tak payah cakap la. tapi, aku masih boleh layan lagi national geographic itu. aku pon layanlah. dia tunjuklah kalau ada peristiwa 911 itu, US tak risau dah sebab diorang kata dinding2 bangunan2 kat situ takkan runtuh sebab diorang letak chemical kat dinding itu waktu cat. (whateva la..)

then, masuklah satu part nih..dia kata diorang dah buat senjata untuk melawan terrorist nih yang sanggup mengorbankan nyawa orang tak bersalah seperti ISRAEL. wahh..waktu itu, aku memang meluat gila tahap dewa. benci, geram, semua bercampur2. panas je aku tengok diorang dok bela JEW2 itu. dan2 bapak aku lalu kat living room, terus la dia sound balik kat tv tu..(walaupon orang national geographic itu tak dengar)..

Diorang punya ayat nak kasihan kat JEW2 itu memang buat aku menyampah nak mampos! lepas itu, aku tak tahan sangat, aku tutup terus tv itu. aku naik atas terus pergi mandi. lagi best (haha). sekarang ni media2 kat tv nih tak boleh caya sangat, betol tak? baik dalam atau luar..(??)

hmm..itu je kot. saje nak lepas geram kat sini. aku doakan kesejahteraan umat islam seluruh dunia, dunia akhirat. insyaallah kita semua berjaya di dunia dan akhirat..amin..;)

Monday 18 May 2009

think.it.is.not.too.late.

assalamualaikum..

hmm..basically, i just doing the same stuff everyday. but watching family outing [F.O] realllyy made my day. that show is hilarious!!! i laughed from the beginning until the end of the show!! if you bored and lonely, seriously, this show will make you very very happy. but, i dont know if you find out it's not. i guess we have different taste of funny.
just like malays said..rambut sama hitam, tapi hati lain2..hik3

okay, let's move on. i want to wish happy teacher's day to all my teachers out there. thank you for all your sacrifices and efforts and so much more. especially for teachers in sk jln gurney 1, sk agama dato keramat, smk agama kuala lumpur, and others. seriously, i appreciate it sooo much!!

by the way, thank you so much for those who gives me support (comments) in the previous post. i am soooo lucky to have friends like you guys..!! you guys are the best!!;)

ps; if you watch the link [FO] i made, i love the guest soo much, TOP!!

Friday 15 May 2009

double.happiness.

assalamualaikum...

okay,hari ini aku memang bersyukur sangat2 pada Allah. alhamdulillah, aku dapat 2 berita gembira hari ini. first, aku lulus test jpj parking yang aku repeat hari ini. yeay!! i got p!;) and second, alhamdulillah aku dapat biasiswa mara. seriously, hari ini memang hari paling gembira buat aku. aku memang bersyukur sangat2. okay, let's move on...

tapi, dalam kegembiraan aku ini, aku ada dilemma. pasal lepas ini, mana aku nak pergi? mara ke utm? but, of course korang semua mesti kata pergi mara. yelah, bukan senang nak dapat belajar kat luar negara. sekali dalam seumur hidup tu. memang..aku pun pikir macam tu gak.

honestly, 2,3 bulan lepas, first thought aku, kalau aku dapat utm dengan mara. aku nak pergi utm tau. sebab kursus yang aku dapat kat utm itu, memang impian dan minat aku dari form 4 lagi. memang dah lama dah aku tanam cita2 nak ambil kejuruteraan. plus, aku pun tak minat bio. senang cakap, waktu spm, aku memang selalu menghadap buku fizik and addmath. sebab aku minat gila tahap dewa kat subjek2 itu.

before that, kursus yang aku mintak dan dapat kat mara ini, bioteknologi. of course la, tgk nama pon dah tau kan, mesti kena belajar pasal bio kan. fyi, aku mintak bioteknologi sebab result spm aku unfortunately kimia aku B. jadi, tak boleh mintak engineering. sedih gila la waktu tu.
so, antara banyak2 kursus yang aku boleh mintak dan aku macam berminat sikit ialah bioteknologi. yang lain tak tau la, memang tak menarik perhatian.

study overseas memang impian aku tapi bukan dengan bioteknologi.

tapi, bila aku tengok reaksi family aku terutama sekali parents aku la. aku rasa macam aku kena pergi mara itu. aku tahu, lepas ini, aku kena paksa diri aku belajar benda yang aku kurang minat. kalau ikutkan hati aku, aku memang nak pergi utm tapi bila aku dengar suara mak aku kat tepon bila dia dapat tahu aku dapat mara, tambah pulak dengan muka bapak aku waktu dia tengok kat webpage itu. aku rasa takpelah, baik aku pergi mara. aku tak sanggup nak hilangkan kegembiraan diorang. memang hati aku susah nak terima tapi aku akan cuba.

yelah, bak kata kawan high school aku, minat boleh dipupuk. takpelah, demi mak bapak aku, aku rasa aku pergi mara itu. walaupun hati aku kata tak nak tapi mana tahu, nanti aku suka bio pulak. who knows, right? hmm.. lega gila dapat lepas perasaan kat sini. i feel better now. insyaallah aku boleh.;)

anyway,congratulations to my friends, durrah, farhana said, aishah amalina because they also got the scholarship too. diorang je yang aku tahu setakat ini. kalau tahu yang lain, bagitahu aku. aku nak cakap tahniah kat dia.;)

Wednesday 13 May 2009

in.bahasa.



assalamualaikum,

just like the title said, i'm going to write in bahasa. okay, 1,2,3 transform!!

salam...jadi, sekarang pukul 2 pagi tapi aku tak gosok lagi baju semua orang. biasalah..aku memang pemalas pun. kerja tgk video2 kat youtube je..(haha) aku tengok big bang intimate notes...thanks to my dear,SABRINA. best bangat video2 itu. aku asyik gelak je. dah la aku minat gila kat TOP itu. (tee-hee)
okay, bila aku surf-punya-surf-punya-surf tiba2 rasa macam dah lama aku tak tatap gambar HIRO aku tu..(hik3). okaylah, so aku nak share dgn korang gambar ini. bak kata kawan-kawan high school aku dulu...sharing is fun! jadi,memandangkan hiro dah kahwin tahun ini. aku pun decide nak letak gambar2 ini..aku rasa diorang kawaii sangat!!;)


tapi, sebelum aku aku habiskan post aku ini. aku ada benda nak dibincangkan sikit. kat malaysia ini, banyak gila jenama kopi jual kan? sampai aku rasa macam geli pun ada. okay aku takkan sebut jenama2 kopi itu. tapi, kadang2 aku tak paham kenapa kena letak nama kopi macam itu. laku ke? aku rasa lagi tak nak minum adalah. baru2 ini, aku tengok ada kopi j**** lak..dalam hati aku kata,
"giler la weyh!!!!"
ketawa tak habis tu..hmm..but i have no offense about it!! aku tak kesah pon. bukannya dosa pon letak nama kopi macam itu. saja aku nak cakap pasal benda sebab aku musykil. korang? musykil tak? kalau tak, takpe..no hal with that!!;)
......no objection....

Monday 11 May 2009

bla.bla.bla

assalamualaikum..

today, knowing that many friends of mine are going to further their study makes me feel sad and jealous. yeah! everybody is going different way.huhu;(

i just came back from my village which is in perlis. after almost a month my grandparents left the house, me and my family and of course, my grandparents went back there. suprisingly, there a LOT of trash there. not to mention dust and animals lived there. it just like a zoo. so, we're together cleaned the house until it become the five star hotel!(hik3!just kidding!)

okay, frog is the most thing in the world that makes me crazy. seriously, it's freaking me out. you know what, when i had to clean the at the back at the house. suddenly, there were 5 (yucks!) frogs playing with each other. i dont know where they were come from. automatically, i screamed and ran like hell.

"MAKKKKKKKK!!!!!"

very funny,huh?! but, thank god we were there to help my grandmother. if not, i'm sure it will take 2 days to clean the whole house all by herself!!

okay, i think that's all!!
jaa~~

Friday 8 May 2009

it.is.unexpected.

assalamualaikum....

do you read my entry before this..? yup,it's about my no-confidence-at-all. okay, i going to be honest with you now. it's all about my jpj test today. so, the result...1 failed and 1 passed. i failed three point turn which was the easiest things of all. yeah, i know that. i also didnt know that i failed at first. huhu..so sad. after i knew that i failed i was soo sad. you know, there are a lot of tears in my eyes but i tried soo hard to stop it from fall. huhu.....;(

but, what happen after that was unexpectable. i thought i will get a scary jpj tester. because as i waiting for my turns which is hijau63, i saw a lot of time where the testers come to the starting point all by themselves. seriously, i thought i will not pass. but it's not!! thanks to KPP Ahmad Hilal. he was sooo nice to me.

during the on-the-road test, there are unexpected things happened. firstly, at the first traffic light, a motorcycle is crossing in front of me as i wanted to turn right to the highway. yeah, it was the motorcycle fault. but , thank god mr tester press the break. (haha) if not, it will become a trauma for me...;)

second, i watched an accident happen in front of my eyes.. seriously, it was unbelievable. you know what, i also asked mr tester during the test..(haha)

me: encik nampak tak tu??
mr tester: haah!

but, we just straight heading to the driving school (hik3). i also did a very stupid thing today. i didnt realize that i put my i.c in my pocket. so, after i had done the test, it was 5.40 p.m, i went to the testers small office in block c. there was two men there (nope, there are not the tester). so, i asked for my i.c. and here goes the talk.....

me: saya tak dapat i.c saya la...waktu dah habis test parking tu dia tak bagi...
man#1: biar betul? selalunya bagi...cuba check poket.

so, i checked my pocket. tee-hee. i took out the i.c and show to them.

me: hehe..ade dah. sory ye!
man#1: simpan elok2
me: still laughing to cover my stupid act
man#2: macamana tadi? lulus?
me: oo...parking je yang tak..
man#2: oo..takpe. nanti buat balik. gudluck!!

ahhh...they are soo kind. i dont know why before this i thought all jpj people are very scary and serious human being (haha).

i also want to thanks to a lady which i dont know her name from the first time we met until the last time (haha;) thanks for all the advice. if not, i will fail my test, cs.!!

everything.in.mess.

assalamualaikum..

okay,right now, 12.50 am..yup, it's midnight!! still no things are done! just like the title>everything in mess..!

unfotunately, today is not my day! soo sad....i dont know why, i feel like i want to cry. many things came up in my mind on the spot. but the main thing that made me sad because i dont have any confidence and strength to face tomorrow. something are going to happen tomorrow. i'm reaalllyy sure. 100%!! that's why i dont want to sleep. afraid of what will happen tomorrow.

tomorrow....it's very misterious word for me. arggghhhh!! please help me!! only one that i can ask for help right now..(ALLAH).. yeah, of course, i'm a muslim.

so, i hope that everything will not totally mess up for me. dear tomorrow, just give me a little of sadness if you want so. because right now, i'm totally screwed it up!! gosh! help me...:(

give me some hope..
emotionally and uncovered right now..
just like ima's blog title..
split it up!!

(ima..jgn marah..hehe;)

Thursday 7 May 2009

a.message.to.my.dear.friends!

assalamualaikum...

aku tak tau kenapa tapi rasa macam nak tulis bm la pulak..(hehe). yelah..sekali-sekala kena lah memartabatkan bahasa melayu (haha). okay2..sebenarnya, hari ini aku memang penat gila. jadi, malas nak mengerah otak aku nak translate english.

kepada semua member-member aku yang kejap je lagi nak masuk matrix..korang gudluck eh! jgn lupa aku..(hihi) tapi, kalau korang decide nak lupakan aku, aku no hal tapi bagitahu aku dulu la..meh aku bagi penumbuk sebijik..!(haha;) kidding....! tapi seriously, aku akan ingat korang sampai bila-bila..(huhu)

aku lambat lagi nak masuk UTM. 28hb jun...lama kan?? aku rasa aku boleh bina badan lagi..(haha). tapi aku mintak-mintak la dapat biasiswa mara..amin...;)

aku sekarang rasa macam malas dah nak post entri sebab member-member blog aku semuanya pergi matrix..siapa lagi nak borak dengan aku tiap-tiap hari..argghh..sedih gila. lepas ini, kalau aku bukak account aku mesti dah tak banyak sangat nak baca..sedih gila..!!!;(

oklah..move on!! aku doakan member-member aku semua berjaya!! korang boleh buat!! all the best!! sayang korang sangat-sangat!!
muah!!

Monday 4 May 2009

exhausted!!


assalamualaikum...

okay, i just want to share something about yesterday. so here's the story, yesterday was a very very tiring day!! that's why i post about it now. after a busy day working like hell, i went to klia with my family to pick up my mom from jakarta. she was sooo lucky. last week langkawi, this week jakarta! i guess i want to work at my mom's place!(haha;) so, we all arrived at home about 11 pm. u know what, i'm soo tired as i felt like if i lay down, my brain is completely shutdown! unfortunately, there's still a work for me..;(

as usual, iron the clothes. 10 is the number of the clothes!!(huhu). it is a routine for me to do that every single night except for friday and saturday but yesterday, it became the most challenging work i had ever done. i started the work at midnight where everybody was in the bed! but, i was alone in the living room pushed myself to complete the job as fast as i could.

i had to rub my eyes every single minute to stop my sleepy eyes. not to mention yawning, that was the most frequent thing happen. after half of the clothes were done, suddenly, i noticed i took the wrong clothes! argghh! my heart was swearing like hell at that time. so, after an excruciating hour, i managed the work. without considering if the clothes were perfectly done or not, i just throw myself on the bed (haha;).

so, to mama, ayah and jia. i'm sorry if all of your clothes were not tidy as usual! hehe...

that's all. i'm sorry if you find it was a crap but that's the story!!;)
till then, bye2!!
....i guess the cat in the pic is exhausted but somehow i also think the cat is dead??......

Friday 1 May 2009

alhamdullilah!!

assalamualaikum...

hurm..it's been a while since i posted last entry..
okey2..
after a lot patience had been used for past days, finally i had a good day! fyi, i got great result for upu. plus it is my first choice. so, i'm reallllyyy relieved. at last, i found my decision. if i didnt get the scholarship, UTM will be the next destination. i hope i can have a great years there! seriously! without my high school friends, i will feel lonely. you know what, i am the one who cant survive without friends (poor me). no lies there...totally!

so..everybody are going to different place. so, we are going to meet new things, new experience, new friends, i dont know..maybe new bf?! (haha.;) we are not going to meet our friends everyday! so, let face it,friends!! i hope we all can achieve our dreams!!(dreaming..;)

tell me which u do you get..please i'm begging you!
last but not least..friendship forever!!;)