Friday, 29 July 2011



currently, my blog is under construction. now, i'm looking for some ideas. i know my blog is teribble. i had to get out from this purplish minds. okay, i dont know when is the day this blog will be looking nice and awesome. 

shall we wait for that day? 


Thursday, 28 July 2011



well, 3 days to go for Ramadhan, people!! let's not forget that..hee.

last thursday, i was in my kampong in Perlis until last sunday. after that, early morning me and my father went straight to KL, sending my little sister to school and then dropped me at sungai tua, gombak. 

spending 7 days away from home really sent me a message there. actually, before i came to sungai tua, i tell myself and Allah that i really have to find an answer of something that i dont know. i need to end all these endless and pointless thoughts of what should i do?, what am i doing and bla-bla-bla so on and so forth.

and alhamdulillah, i found it at the last day i spent my camp in sungai tua (which is yesterday). thank you Allah for giving the answer clearly..! now, i know what i have to do and where i should i aim for. it's okay to be the last people to discover about it because to be clueless in that messy thoughts really takes my soul away. 

once again, THANK YOU ALLAH for the answer ^_^

it was awesome days to spent with my family in Perlis and my lovely sisters in Gombak. the loads of love that everyone gave to me reminds me of how lovely Allah is. thank you all and all praises to Allah!!! :)

what to do next is to work it on and onnnn~~~~~~

peace out!  

teehee *_*
p/s : 
your merciless comment is soo not gonna make me lose my temper and make me sooo fool to be affected by your words. and not to forget ALLAH KNOWS what just you typed to me. thank you because your comment became a practical learning of what my senior taught me about being wise. GOOD FOR YOU!

Thursday, 21 July 2011



(ini adalah sesi meng-ekspress-kan perasaan..tak payah komen..buat2 macam tak pernah baca)

serius. hati aku gundah-gulana sekarang. tak sedap hati, tak senang duduk, katakan saja segala situasi yang berlaku apabila jiwa kacau. entahlah..tiba-tiba malam ini aku emosi tahap moksya sorang-sorang. maybe sebab aku happy sangat petang tadi, so aku akan mengalami perasaan sedih sangat. 

sebab mak aku pernah cakap, "jangan suka sangat nanti jadi duka" (aku tak tau nak percaya ke tak...tapi, aku tau mak aku ada point di situ)

warghhhh!! okay, yang boleh tolong sekarang ni Allah je. sebab dia jugak yang bagi aku perasaan ni. aku tak tau nak fikir apa dahhh.. dahla, jom sujud kepadaNya. 

berikanlah aku kekuatan, Ya Allah!! T_T

Sunday, 17 July 2011



greetings, people! or i should say,"Kia ora!!" haha.. do you know what language is that? perhaps, you should google it then..hehe

nevermind, i just wanted to give some update about myself. nothing less nothing more. well, now i'm still unemployed, frictional unemployed to be specific. this holiday is something that really a challenge to me. you know, to take care of yourself, your sight, your iman and you name it. 

even now, it is the time for me to do whatever i haven't did during my hostel life before. i guess, now, finally i got my own opinion about life in this world. what i could say is my life is something not actually about me. life is about giving to others. but not strangers. i'm not to that extent yet okay. 

what i'd learn is, life is about Allah and His Message. you know, every single things happened contains the hidden message that we will not know until Allah permits us. i don't know why i'm writing this. just a thought that i learnt while i was in kmb. 

okay, back to the main point, please...
alright, now, i'm seriously in a mood to improve. i hope that after the holidays, i will have a bad relationship with a thing so-called TV by modern human. more and more helping my family and friends too. nevertheless, READ BOOKS. fewwhhh, there are A LOT of books that i haven't finish yet. one of the reasons is that i really like to read according to chapters, not the book. today, i read chapter B in book A. tomorrow, i read chapter Y in book H. just so you know, most of my books is not novels. some sort like articles, difference stories in different chapters. ah-hah!

that's just it! now, get back to your things as i'm about to do my things. do something beneficial to yourself in this World and Hereafter ^_^


please, do not let it go, bella!! -.-"

Friday, 8 July 2011



it's a very calm day here in cheras. and dont forget to say what? yes, you dear..say what? (haha) yup, say Alhamdulillah!! *wink3*
okay, sorry for the i-dont-know-what-to-say intro..haha. *forgive me for my weakness.*

so, here, i just want to express some gratitude for everyone. 

i know the success that Allah gave me a few days before is not my effort alone. it happens because (Allah permits it, of course) and the help of every single persons in my surrounding. especially my family, teachers, friends and also you, my readers, aunts or uncles or sisters or brothers who gave me the lessons of life by many ways.  

thank you soooo much for volunteering to be Allah's medium for me to learn about life. 

an unstoppable thank you for everyone of you!!!! 

an unstoppable ALHAMDULILLAH for You, O Allah :)

like uncle ben said (credit to aimi),

"a great power comes with great responsibility"

and sayyid qutb once wrote;

"Victory will not be theirs as a personal reward. They will be given power as trustees appointed for the implementation of the Islamic way of life. They will be worthy trustees because neither were they promised nor did they look for any worldly gain. They pledged themselves truly to God at a time when they were unaware of any worldly benefit that may befall them except that they would win God’s pleasure."
(check my previous post)
have a good day, people!! ^_^

Monday, 4 July 2011



all praises to Allah for everything that He gave and gives me until now. alhamdulillah~~~

so sorry dear blog, it's been a long time since i wrote here. it's not that i didnt have time. it's just i dont have the mood to write. maybe i just feel like to hear, to see of what other people said and wrote. absorbing things.

i dont have any message to give you but just a feeling to share. i dont know, maybe my dear blog, you'll always be a place that i write to express my emotion. and Allah is the most who know how i feel and felt.

right now, i'm doing my things in my house and my duty towards Allah. but, to spend the holiday, i shall tell you, it's not easy mann. it's tough when it comes to fulfill your task as a good servant of Allah and as a true muslim.

jahiliyah will always come to me, begging me and keep making me attracted to it. syaitan always keep on whispering things for me to do. and I admit, there are times I follow them. arghhh! I dont like it. in fact, i hate it and especially i hate myself, for not being strong enough to get rid of all those things. 

i just hate it....and i feel really really sad about it!

why cant i be strong like the prophet s.a.w.?
why cant i be strong like the companions of prophet.?


sometimes, i just feel stupid. and i feel sorry for "everyone that is still playing in mud stupidly". there are tonnes of them here in my surrounding. I know it's somehow my fault! 

to be a true muslim is not easy. whoever feel so comfortable, easy with his/her life, he/she should be shameful cause the truth is not just it! please wake up people! we've to do something to take everyone of us back to Allah and be proud of Islam. 

we're the same. we did and do mistakes. and when you feel it deep inside your heart that you're regret of what you've done. just say it to Allah cause Allah knows all about it and He looks upon us and in fact, He is the one who gives that superb feeling. 

 "And those who having done something to be ashamed of, or wronged their own souls earnestly bring Allah to mind; and ask for forgiveness for their sins,―and who can forgive sins except Allah?,―And are never obstinate in persisting knowingly in (the wrong) they have done."
[Ali - Imran : 135]

"O son of Adam, as long as you call upon Me, and hope in me, I shall forgive for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds in the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I shall forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with an earthful of sins and were you then to face Me, without having associated anything with Me, I shall grant you an earthful of pardon." 

(At-Tarmizi) (hadis no. 42 from Hadis Arbain)

that is sooooo sweet of Allah! i cant barely hold my heart..~_~