all praises to Allah for everything that He gave and gives me until now. alhamdulillah~~~
so sorry dear blog, it's been a long time since i wrote here. it's not that i didnt have time. it's just i dont have the mood to write. maybe i just feel like to hear, to see of what other people said and wrote. absorbing things.
i dont have any message to give you but just a feeling to share. i dont know, maybe my dear blog, you'll always be a place that i write to express my emotion. and Allah is the most who know how i feel and felt.
right now, i'm doing my things in my house and my duty towards Allah. but, to spend the holiday, i shall tell you, it's not easy mann. it's tough when it comes to fulfill your task as a good servant of Allah and as a true muslim.
jahiliyah will always come to me, begging me and keep making me attracted to it. syaitan always keep on whispering things for me to do. and I admit, there are times I follow them. arghhh! I dont like it. in fact, i hate it and especially i hate myself, for not being strong enough to get rid of all those things.
i just hate it....and i feel really really sad about it!
why cant i be strong like the prophet s.a.w.?
why cant i be strong like the companions of prophet.?
sometimes, i just feel stupid. and i feel sorry for "everyone that is still playing in mud stupidly". there are tonnes of them here in my surrounding. I know it's somehow my fault!
to be a true muslim is not easy. whoever feel so comfortable, easy with his/her life, he/she should be shameful cause the truth is not just it! please wake up people! we've to do something to take everyone of us back to Allah and be proud of Islam.
we're the same. we did and do mistakes. and when you feel it deep inside your heart that you're regret of what you've done. just say it to Allah cause Allah knows all about it and He looks upon us and in fact, He is the one who gives that superb feeling.
"And those who having done something to be ashamed of, or wronged their own souls earnestly bring Allah to mind; and ask for forgiveness for their sins,―and who can forgive sins except Allah?,―And are never obstinate in persisting knowingly in (the wrong) they have done."
[Ali - Imran : 135]
"O son of Adam, as long as you call upon Me, and hope in me, I shall forgive for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds in the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I shall forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with an earthful of sins and were you then to face Me, without having associated anything with Me, I shall grant you an earthful of pardon."
(At-Tarmizi) (hadis no. 42 from Hadis Arbain)
that is sooooo sweet of Allah! i cant barely hold my heart..~_~