Saturday, 21 October 2017

A.Divine.Remedy.for.the.messed.up



People are made very reactionary. Whatever happened we have this quick response like a knee-jerk response to everything. The quick involuntary reaction has both the positive and negative side of it. The positive side that it saves us from damage/injury such as our finger is accidentally touch fire, we immediately took our finger away. The bad side is we easily get angry, irritating, less patience, emotionally react and maybe to the extent of giving up with life. However, the body are also made that it can achieve another level by putting it into practice. For example, when a boxer practices hard to receive tonnes of punches that the boxer immune to it. Or it can be an adult who has more experience in tolerating and being patience to tantrum kids than a younger teenager. 

Hence, in this surah al-Maarij, Allah gave us solution or remedy to control our 'negative side of reactionary' which is solat/prayer. Constant prayers will train to become more patience and emotionally aware/stable to control our senses. Because in prayer, we actually meeting the Most High and Powerful. So, you train yourself to give the most highest priority focusing to Allah. Like when you're having an important interview, you'll totally put 100% of your focus to your interviewer. If there's a call coming in, you'll leave it for later etc. Same goes to prayer, it teaches us to focus of the most priority ones, ignoring the intrusion of other things that are less important. 

This is how it teaches us in life as well. When something happened in our life, we tend to get very reactionary and emotional immediately. You have all these negative coming at you and influencing to do sth stupid just to make you feel relief. But training in focus the most important ie your prayers will make you to relax back and think again, actually what is the most important to do now. What are the most priority thing to handle first. You can get clear view of what's happening now rather than having a messed-up thinking of your life. More aware and mature looking at your problems in life and also relating back consciously of this thing happened due to Allah's plan. And we know He is the best planner and he always gives the best for us. So we don't get overreaction but we try solve it wisely.

So the big question is how actually our prayer going? Are we having the 100% percent/khusyu' that we are meeting Allah, the Most High Powerful? I need to fix this very much! T_T

That's for now! Thank you. 

Friday, 15 September 2017

no.more.lejen.


When all your hopes are gone 
When all the things you wanna do are flushed away 
Like a fire burning spirit slowly getting mild and milder away
No one really care about you 
how you feel
They only care what they want for you
They seek more and more from you
leaving you with nothing but broken self. 

Oh Allah
For nothing that I have now
I think I'm falling down
One last pray from me
Please catch me when I fall. 


Monday, 19 June 2017

need.your.prayers.

Salam there,

Currently, I am having a roller coaster in life. Life is generally okay. I mean, I'm doing really bad. I have a job, I know what I wanna do, I have people who love me around me. But, things doesn't really go with I want it to be.

I always pray to Allah to make things ease for me. Yet, maybe it's still not happen cause I haven't done my part the best that I have to do. It's really stressed me up thinking about all of these. You know, when you have to start again from all the way from the beginning.

You're no longer living in RI
You're no longer have your strongest support system with you
You're no longer in that biah solehah and dakwiyah
Your current usrahmates don't really understand you yeah cause you don't really blend well with your waqi' due to your kekangan of making time with them (I can't really blame them cause it's me who makes it like that)
You don't know what happen with your life in the future (single/married life. being adult is just so hard)
You envision how you caught up with your life when looking at your master's prediction


O Allah
grant me a serenity and contentment
like how you used to give me

I really miss back in the days that everything seemed really hard but I feel you're there beside me.

O how hard life it is right now.
Even the person who you rely on the most have their own problem that you don't want to burden them.